A day we won't forget

Two weeks ago we went to Nate's cousins wedding. While we sat in the back corner watching the father of the bride dance with his daughter for their "last dance" I got all teary eyed. I wondered if my husband would ever get the chance to experience that in this life. I wondered if he would ever have the chance to go to a daddy daughter party or be invited to be the prince at a princess tea party. I thought about my boys and wondered if they would ever know what it was like to have a girl in the house. I knew I would love this baby no matter what we found out yesterday. I was all ready and geared up for another sweet boy. It's all I know and it's all I have loved up until this point.

For years I have identified myself as a "boy mom." I have embraced all things boy as I realize that I have no choice when it comes to what sex of baby comes to our family. Boys are fantastic and I absolutely adore being a mom to my sons. People have asked me for years if I wanted a girl. The answer was always of course but I honestly feel like you just "get what you get and you don't throw a fit." Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and if that includes 4 children or no children, all boys or all girls, we have to trust that he knows what we need....even if it isn't what we had in mind or our ideal. After the painful experience of infertility this past year I have been feeling so blessed and SO ready to accept any miracle baby that comes.

 As I got ready for the ultrasound yesterday I turned PANDORA on to the Michael Buble station and let the tunes flow. I decided NOT to wear pink as I have done for at least 2 of my gender ultrasounds. I thought Dallin was a girl....wrong. I KNEW Parks was a girl......wrong. We found out Landon was a boy at 12 weeks due to a CVS test and were THIRLLED to find out he was a HEALTHY baby boy. The doctor had us scared out of our minds thinking he had trisomy, or downs, or even worse. I decided on a flowy beige flowered shirt. I was ready to hear that is was another boy! At least I thought I was ready...then the song "My Girl" came up on Pandora.....I started to cry. I washed my face and had to start over with the make up. I was almost done when the song "Daughters" came on by John Mayer. Lost it again. I just kept thinking over and over again that IF we are to ever have a little girl in our family....this is IT. This is our LAST chance. I finished getting dressed and ran over to the gas station to get a Coke (my first caffeinated drink in over 4 months) I wanted this baby to be active so we could get a good view.

With my blood pressure off the charts (thanks to Coke and nerves) we first me with my Dr. He told me he was getting a good vibe today and thought this baby was a girl. He wanted to come in and see the ultrasound and wondered if that was ok. It was fine by me...I wanted the second witness there anyway! The tech started looking around and immediately I saw SOMETHING. I just knew it was going to be a boy. Then the tech said, "The darn cord is right in between the legs." She poked and prodded until she said, "O my....I see 3 little lines!"

Then the Dr. walked in and took one look a the ultrasound and said, "Well, THAT is a girl FOR SURE!" He was SO happy for us! "Waaaahhhhhh!!!!" I was a blubbering mess...I looked over at Nate and saw that tears were coming down his cheeks. I was pretty much in disbelief. We watched our little one move and squirm. She put her little arms up by her head and I'm pretty sure she waved at us. ("She".......sounds so different!")

As Nate and I left the office I started to sob. I kept saying over and over..."I'm dreaming right now.....this just can't be true!" We were both over the moon. Calling our loved ones was so amazing too. It's pretty fun to think that after 5 grandsons on my side of the family we will FINALLY have some pink!

I wanted a really fun and cute way to share the news with the boys. My friend Nikki told me about an idea she had heard of so I threw it all together before the boys got home from school. Here it is!

http://youtu.be/pKhJ6VholeQ

Later on, I had to go to the mall to get my Landon some new pants. He has holes in pretty much all of them. While I was there I stopped at Gymboree and bought my very fist little girl outfit! It is for next Christmas. I started looking around at all of the girl things and I couldn't even handle it! I was SO overwhelmed. I grabbed the little clearance Christmas outfit and got out of there ASAP. I felt SO out of place! We absolutely have NOTHING for this girl!

Dinner out as a family was the way we ended our day of celebration. It was a great day we won't ever forget. Thanks for all of the phone calls, texts, messages and everything. I have such a great support system and I am thankful for each and every one of you. I've said it a million times but we really are so blessed.