Good-bye Tilly

Well....so much for "super mom." We sold our sweet puppy today. I seriously can't stop crying about it. I have never had a dog in my life and I never knew how attached you could get to a furry 4 legged creature. I freely admit it...it was just too much for me to handle. I tried for 6 weeks to be strong and tell myself I could get through this. 3 children 5 and under and a puppy (which is the equivalent of like 2 more children) was just too much for me to deal with. She kept going to the bathroom all over my new house. She was doing pretty well with the potty training thing until it got cold outside. (I don't really blame her...I wouldn't want to go outside in the cold wet grass.) Nate and I have just worked too hard for too long to have a puppy ruin everything. Kids do enough of that already. The boys also continued to be a little bit too rough with her and I was constantly worried for her safety. I posted an ad in the classifieds and a little old lady called. She and her husband are retired and already have a little chihuahua and wanted another puppy. I can't even put into words how heartbreaking it was to watch Dallin say goodbye. We both cried together as I held him. I feel like the worst parent ever. He kept saying, "O please Mommy...I love her. I don't want her to go to another house." I tried to tell him a story to get his mind off of everything and he would interrupt me and say, "I feel so sad Mommy. I hurt in my tummy." I knew exactly how he felt becuase I was feeling the same way. Even though it was such a hard thing to do..it really is best for us. Landon is trying to crawl and I couldn't leave him on the floor with the puppy because she would nip and him and lick all over his face. Landon deserves to learn how to crawl and walk without being attacked. I wish I just would have listened to my instincts when we decided to get her. I knew now wasn't the right time for us. O well...you live and and you learn. So long Tilly...we love you and we will miss you very much.