Baby countdown is on. Went to the Dr. on Tuesday and I'm still at a 3 and 80% effaced. Doctor said I probably won't make it to my due date. I'm fine with that though. I swear I got up every hour on the hour last night to go to the bathroom. I can't wait to have my body back. Pregnancy is seriously the equivalent of ALIENS taking over the body! It's exhausting. At least when you get up all night with a baby, you get the reward of looking at a sweet tiny little face.
I've had my moments these past few weeks where I've wondered how on earth I am going to survive 5 children.....2 babies at the same time. I can hardly keep my head above water with all of the things we have going on in our lives currently! I'm not sure how or where a newborn is going to fit into all of this chaos!
I have decided to make a goal though for the next few months. I think this one word will help me get through and try to enjoy these sweet baby filled moments as this will be our last time experiencing them.
The word is: SIMPLIFY.
I finally decided that it was time for the boys to attend the school that they are supposed to attend. Now that we have moved and are SO CLOSE to the new school...I won't have to drive them to and from every day. They can walk or ride their bikes! I'm tired and worn out from having to do the back and forth each day and packing up 2 babies in the early morning sub temps wasn't sounding too appealing. We'll finally have some cohesion in life. Boys will go to the same school that they go to church, scouts, and play sports with. It was a good first week for them. Some things were a little tough but I think they will do well here. Dallin isn't pictured because he was already in his new classroom meeting his new teacher!
I cut my hair off! My hair was too long, and took too long to dry every day. As I left for the salon my husband said, "Well, I'm sure you'll look exactly the same when you get back! You always do!"
That was it. I decided it was time for something drastic! 9 inches were cut off and I had it dyed a dark brown with some light brown and red highlights. I'm loving how quickly it takes to get ready in the morning! It is SO short in the back. I'll be saving some money on shampoo and conditioner that is for sure! And yes, Nate was shocked. He says it's almost like he has a "dark haired mistress!" haha.
I went to Sam's club tonight and spent a small fortune on food for my family and easy quick freezer meals. Trying to take care of everyone even if I'm out for the count for awhile. Simple. Love it.
I'm also doing a ton of de-crapifying which is such a good feeling. I took a huge load of stuff to the DI yesterday. Less is more. I thought I got rid of stuff when we moved over here. Looks like the process is continuing! I honestly feel so much more calm and at peace when I am not drowning in "stuff."
The other thing that I've been trying really hard to do is say NO. No, I can't help out in the classroom right now. No, I can't help out in the nursery right now. No extra sports for the boys this winter. I just don't want to be trying to lug a tiny baby around and chase after Anna at all of these germ infested sports places. The answer won't always be no.....but for awhile it will be. And I'm sure we will all survive just fine. Parker is playing basketball but with Nate as the coach, I don't have to worry about being there. It is SO hard for me to say no.....it's not in my nature. It feels good though and I know it what I need to do for the time being.
Usually by this time of year I am in full fledged Christmas mode. Not this year. It's causing me to stress out too much and I don't need the stress. I'm sure Christmas will come together. It may not be the Christmas with the most beautiful Christmas card. We may not have the cutest family photo. The gifts might not be quite as labor intensive as usual. We'll spend that energy loving on a tiny new baby and remembering the real meaning of Christmas this year. I'm looking forward to the spirit that comes with having my focus on the things that matter most.